I don't get the deal with birthdays, I mean, I like celebrating other people's birthdays but when it comes to mine, let's just say if I could choose, I'd rather not have one at all. Like jeez, I don't need people to remind me that I'm getting older that I'll be having more responsibilities in my life & that I'm not doing a good job with them. Maybe it's that people expect you to be happy on your birthday but what if I don't want to be happy? To me, its just another day, or probably worse than a normal day. Its just a few more hours till 12th April and I'm already feeling like it's going to be a horrible day. Then again.. maybe it's just me.
I don't need huge birthday parties or expensive presents, I just want a day to myself, to figure what I want in my life and what I'm doing. Cause as of right now, I don't know if I'm studying cause I want to, or if it's because I have to. And it's funny how my birthday wishes have all been the same since sec 4 (cause that's when I started wishing) & till today, it hasn't come true. All I need to know now is that I won't give up on myself cause lately, that's all I've been wanting to do.
