Glorious Chaos

2010-06-16T17:37:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged for the longest time! Its freezing cold & I'm rewatching Psych cause apparently theres a pineapple featured in every episode. I'm gna find all of them hehehe!

2010-04-16T10:48:00.002+08:00

No matter how pessimistic you are, there will still be a part of you that hopes one day your life will have a fairytale ending, a happily ever after. Amidst all the chaos in the world and the harshness of reality, we all want to go back to being a child, when life was all good and you believed that fairytale endings would really come true.

& its funny how your ipod can shuffle to some random song and make you think so much about life.

2010-04-11T21:57:00.003+08:00

I don't get the deal with birthdays, I mean, I like celebrating other people's birthdays but when it comes to mine, let's just say if I could choose, I'd rather not have one at all. Like jeez, I don't need people to remind me that I'm getting older that I'll be having more responsibilities in my life & that I'm not doing a good job with them. Maybe it's that people expect you to be happy on your birthday but what if I don't want to be happy? To me, its just another day, or probably worse than a normal day. Its just a few more hours till 12th April and I'm already feeling like it's going to be a horrible day. Then again.. maybe it's just me.

I don't need huge birthday parties or expensive presents, I just want a day to myself, to figure what I want in my life and what I'm doing. Cause as of right now, I don't know if I'm studying cause I want to, or if it's because I have to. And it's funny how my birthday wishes have all been the same since sec 4 (cause that's when I started wishing) & till today, it hasn't come true. All I need to know now is that I won't give up on myself cause lately, that's all I've been wanting to do.

2010-03-28T14:27:00.001+08:00

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

2010-03-14T14:07:00.002+08:00

Doing my stupid hw111 assignment (coming up with a resume) made me realise I really don't know what I want to do with my life. Just finding a job ad is so difficult, nothing seems to be remotely interesting, nothing that I really want to commit. I'm beginning to wonder if studying this much is actually worth it; especially since now theres just zero motivation to sit down and look at lecture notes / books. I just need one brilliant product idea and I wont have to do anything for the rest of my life!

2010-02-26T20:46:00.002+08:00

Haven't cried so much in such a long time. I don't even know why the hell I cried so much. I'm just so tired and frustrated of living up to insane expectations all the time. You said that I should be doing better than I am now just to prove to myself that I can & I realised, all I've ever done was to prove to you that I could.

2010-02-22T10:05:00.003+08:00

Monday again. Am in the com lab now waiting for 1030 for econs discussion. Just ended matrices tutorial and I came out of it with an empty brain. Anyhoo, I think theres some 'humor barrier' between me and the PRCs in my class. My tutor's some russian dude and he had to keep leaving the classroom to get markers cause those in the class didnt work. So them PRCs were just giggling to themselves everytime he left the room.. is it very funny??

Now Im just annoyed that I cant print my lecture slides >:-C The lousy spms comp cant open PPT!!!

2010-02-07T10:52:00.002+08:00

Wayyy behind in school work, it bothers me but Im not doing anything about it, which bothers me more. I never used to be like this, I had high expectations (maybe too high) until I kept failing myself and I just gave up altogether. I guess I give up too quickly :(

2010-02-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

G told me to blog, so here I am blogging. School's been crazy busy.

1.Sunday's IHG has left me with a very horrible tan :( I put three layers of sunblock but apparently it wasnt enough :(((

2. I keep falling sick in hall :(

3. I've got a horrible memory because I cannot remember anything else that happened!

Im damn lazy to maintain my blog cause my life is so boring and I bet no one reads this anyway! Comment if you read! Then I'll consider updating more often.

2010-01-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

I feel horrible :(

So far I've been feeling sick everyday after school, very unproductive cause of all the napping. Haven't studied or done much tutorials & I'm feeling mega nauseous & dizzy now although I was hungry a few moments ago. Worst thing is that I'm down with a horrible sore throat. Feels like death :((((

2010-01-16T19:29:00.002+08:00

First week of school was terrible, starting school at 830 is no joke. Incurred a huge sleep debt which I probably cleared yesterday after concussing from 3-10pm & 4-10am. Stressing out over add/drop, which electives to add, if I should take another elective and changing time slots. Not to mention trainings and meetings at night. Last sem even without all these I still did terribly for exams, really worried for the coming exams :(

Yesterday during econs tutorial we were told to introduce ourselves and say your interests (daily life & in economics), the only thing I thought about was, I hate econs & then it hit me, what the hell am I doing here? Thing is, theres hardly any point pursuing interests especially when its not practical.

Omg I really really need to start studyinggg

2009-12-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

I cannot believe 2009 is coming to an end & its been a helluva year. Slacking, working and studying all crammed together. All in all its been the most taxing year thus far - physically, mentally and emotionally. I wont say that next year will be a better year cause I know it will only get worse.

2009-12-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

Parents are back from Laos & I'm unbelievably proud of my sissy :)

2009-12-09T10:08:00.002+08:00

Mad tired! Woke up at an ungod-ly hour even my taste buds haven't woken up. Had breakfast, think it was chicken and rice - can never be too sure since I couldnt taste a thing. Going to meet G for New Moon (finally!) Cannot wait to sleep on the bus!

2009-11-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

Stupid G >:C

We were going to the pantry to get hot water for our cup noodles & I was walking out the room, eating a piece of bread and she suddenly exclaimed damn LOUDLY and pointed to the floor where I was about to step. I thought it was a lizard that I almost stepped on, I got a rude shock and jumped out of the way & hopped back into the room. When I looked at what she was pointing at, it was just a tiny little bug -.- And for that I nearly choked on my bread and died. Laughed for DAMN long cause the bug was really really tiny, I have pictorial proof ask me for it! Its like the size of my small fingernail. Sooo not worth dying over. & after filling our hot water, I decided to examine the bug and it was already dead -.- x100000

2009-11-23T11:16:00.003+08:00

Another sleepless night, was so motivated to wake up being all optimistic but the lack of sleep got me all cranky. Thanks guomin for breakfast :) & as for the rest of the papers, like G very aptly said, "screw it". Cannot wait for exams to be over!

2009-11-19T16:48:00.002+08:00

Exams started on a horrible note, two words to sum it up - fucking screwed. And to think econs was my only hope of doing well.

So much for optimism :-(

2009-11-17T19:28:00.002+08:00

Back from running with G. Anyone staying in NTU who wants to run, please accompany G to run kay. I never ever want to run again in my life. After running G still turned to me "damn shiok right!!" and I was trying my best to balance and walk straight cause I was so dead tired I swear I could just pass away. Damn unfit I know, not cut out to do sports & G very gladly took the initiative to offer to use a pair of scissors to cut me up -.- Immediately collapsed on the floor when we reached the room and G just happily sat on her seat and did her own stuff whilst I was dying on the floor (Y) This is damn ridiculous but Im so tired my hands feel like jellyyyy :-(

2009-11-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

Im so unbelievably glad that my dad knows programming. He totally did the question for me. One down, one left to go! I wonder if all engineers have awesome minds like my dad. Half of a huge burden off my back, about a week left till final exams :(

2009-11-04T11:32:00.003+08:00

So its beginning to sink in that the final exams are a couple of weeks away, two weeks away to be exact. Once again, I regret not being neat and filing my notes nicely & regret not being consistent. You'd think after so many years of studying I would have learnt my lesson but oh well! The weather is mental and everyone is falling sick :(

Econs quiz in an hour!

2009-10-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

Just when you thought life couldn't get any more crappier, along comes something to make it even worse. I've never felt so demoralised doing math before, not even j1 CTs. Now just thinking about it, why the hell am I doing math? I really really hate it. I really admire people who have dreams and aspirations, for me, its just blank.

2009-10-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

I never realised how peaceful the campus is at night until I went walking by myself just now. Its so cooling and for once the chirping of the crickets didnt seem to annoy me. Once in a while the sound of running feet break the silence. It's so true when people say they're always looking for silence but its so difficult to find. Everything's moving at such a fast pace (even faster now that everything's just crammed in 4 months), you're in such a rush that you have no time to think.

And I'm somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream

2009-10-23T22:57:00.003+08:00

School's really beginning to take a toll on us. Us being G & I specifically, we're going mental and hearing nonsense.

Me: Oh nooo I cant decide what jacket to wear with this shirt!

G: Wear the blue one, more rock chic.

Me: Huh.. rock shit?

Me: I cant decide if should go for HRM cause no friends :(

G: Huh, what has going to class got to do with your pants?

I hate that everything's squashed in 4 months, its really not enough time but time's not going to slow down for any of us :( Rly have to start studying, Im quite sure my midterms are really horrendous :(

2009-10-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

Yet another draining week of school ahead. Lucky for the holiday today :) Looked at the calender and theres only about a month plus till final sem exams, dreading it x infinity. I suddenly became really obsessive and cleaned up the floor of hall room, so dustyyyy :( My cupboard's still in a mess and smells like peach tea. I have to do something about it otherwise I'll go to school smelling like a peach everyday :(

Should I start going for my HRM classes!! Its going to be sooo loner if I do (three hours alone) but if I dont go I wont know when my quiz will be since the prof doesnt upload any announcements, tsk :( Everyone's so hardworking in school and Im still struggling like mad, it sucks and Im not really doing anything about it which sucks more :C

PLEASE I NEED TO START STUDYING

2009-10-15T00:53:00.002+08:00

Damn nervous for Friday. Shall attempt to be brave and do a good deed by donating blood with G, shes not even the slightest bit scared & I totally chickened out today (and also cause she wanted ice cream) Why am I torturing myselfff hahahaha, totally couldnt sleep yesterday I think mainly cause I was so nervous about going to donate blood. But nvm, I WILL BE V V BRAVE. Please congratulate me if I go on Friday!

2009-10-10T16:33:00.002+08:00

K, over and done with midterms but they were so difficult I felt like passing away during the paper. It was from bad to worse to worst. The last paper was so ridiculously tedious that no one finished it in an hour and the prof had to give everyone extra 20 minutes to finish. Not like I needed that 20 minutes anyway since I didnt know how to do the bulk of it. Brings back memories of math common test in j1, just multiplied infinitely : (((

2009-10-10T07:59:00.003+08:00

Fracking midtermS in 1.5hours. Feeling all jittery and unprepared :( Was supposed to wake up at 6am to study but I was too tired. Suddenly really thankful that all my classes start at 1030 or later if not I would've definitely skipped a lot of them, so thank you school for fixing classes at a good time!

Shit, its raining (best weather to sleep in and I'm wide awake) and I have no umbrella :(((

2009-10-03T17:13:00.002+08:00

It really annoys me when some parents are so shallow. I really don't think forcing your child to finish assessment books so you can "keep" them away will make them do better for examinations, especially since you bought those kind of books that are supposed to be used for 2 years. Its ridiculous to make a primary 3 do questions she has never learnt before (since shes only supposed to learn them NEXT year). Its so ridiulous and infuriating. Parents who dont know how the education system works should NOT even try to teach their kid, worse, if parents THINK they have the mental capability to teach their child but OBVIOUSLY dont. Its just so annoying to go to lesson one day and hear this,

Parent: Very long never teach her science already right?
Me: Yes but the questions are not even in the syllabus, its supposed to be taught next year.

Parent: Oh, cause I thought if not can faster finish and keep it.

Then the next week, tuition kid finishes those topics she has never learnt before and passes it to me to mark, most of which are wrong so theres no point. So I asked her why did she even attempt to do when she has not learnt before. Her answer?

"My mother say just do, if dont know then look at answer and do"

(Y) for you. Whats the point of having a tuition teacher when all you need is just the answer script at the back of the book right? Its so draining to be there because I've to deal with the girl AND her mother. Im just glad I wont be continuing anymore & I wish the person taking over me the best of luck (you'll srsly need it) and take care of your blood pressure!

2009-09-28T02:35:00.002+08:00

I really dont like the sun :c Im red all over, hands, face, back. Thank god its recess week, cause Im NEVER gna step out of the house looking like this. Its ridiculous that Im so red although I piled on heaps and heaps of sunblock.

Need to Study

2009-09-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

Im sure I've mentioned this a gazillion times but oh school really sucks. You'd think that it should be easy to cope given that the subjects are not new and absolutely foreign. I'm now learning some stuff that I'm quite sure I will never have to remember again. Also sucks that we're so used to studying last minute, when only the final exam is important and nothing else matters. I think I would have learnt much more without any exams.

Ohwell, its going to be a long four years...

2009-09-12T15:03:00.002+08:00

Sleepyzzzz. DND later, hope I dont fall asleep and smash my face into the food. Really love the weekends, havent been studying much at all & although I always tell myself to study during the weekends, its usually all spent on catching up on sleep for the past week.

So 1 quiz down on Friday & just when I thought I was getting to understand Foundations it gets more difficult again. Everything else isnt that great either, need to start studying soon. All that aside, Im just super eggcited for recess week to come. Im going to stay home and sleep; Im sucha boring person but I dont care.

Hate mondays hate mondays hate mondayssss :C

2009-09-05T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hooray for the weekends! Although I'll be attempting to study my ass off. Today was the first time I attended my Foundations of Math lecture (after 3 weeks), only one comment - mind-boggling. Lecturer wasnt exactly speaking clearly to begin with, I can swear at some points he was speaking a total different language. Apparently there are like 5 or so laws for proving, all those funny named theorems and laws. V annoying

Realised my start and end of the weeks suck really bad - Mondays are brain draining cause of 3 tutorials, Friday I have this Foundations lecture which I can totally swear is like Complex Math. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesdays are diet days (according to my friend); definitely going to lose a lot of weight, plus the fact that I find it so difficult to sleep every night & so difficult to study in hallllll :C Already lagging behind for everything and I've a quiz next week.

2009-08-29T15:01:00.002+08:00

Cant believe the 3rd week of school's already over & midterm schedule for some subjects already out. The week was rather productive - non academically of course - I learnt how to use those stand uppy steam irons, learnt how to operate a washing machine, open a hdb style letterbox, went to TWO libraries to print notes & packed my side of the room. Im so ridiculously messy I swear if Shar came to visit, she'll have a fit just looking at my side :c

Its really quite fun living in hall, attempting to run in the evening (epic fail for G&I), laughing at G and her awesome STM & omg the most classic, GILLIANS SHAMPOO. Apparently its supposed to reduce hair fall but I swear I have less hair on my head now! Hair fall therapy my ass.

2009-08-25T09:19:00.002+08:00

Im so thirsty that I feel Im going to shrivel up and dry like a prune :c I suddenly decided that my timetable sucks, every monday has 3 tutorials and by the end of the day, Im left with 0% brain cells and 100% confusion. Although I have to admit, starting lessons at 1030 or later everyday is quite a luxury, especially since G has lessons at 830 hehe. I've also never really believed when people said uni is more slack than jc, but it definitely is, timetable wise. I was so tempted to sleep in and skip my calculus lecture but I decided not to, since tomorrow lectures start at 1230 (& Im probably not even going cause its kinda pointless). Shall make it a point to visit the library soon, I refuse to buy anymore books unless absolutely necessary, math text itself was already 50$ >:C

Thirsty thirsty thirsty!!

2009-08-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

Finally found a friend, shes rather nice (: Im sitting on the fence now, cant decide if school sucks or its alright. They should have more detailed maps, I took a hour to find my tutorial room & when I did, lesson already ended, welldone! Other than that sucky hour of finding the damned room, I also learnt 5 new theorems for limits. I was staring at the slides in utter disbelief - HOLYCOW 5 FREAKING THEOREMS?? So yeah, that was pretty much my day. I have a new roomie now, G went home and P came to stayoverrr haha!

PS: Hall water is gross!

2009-08-16T01:22:00.002+08:00

Teehee, am so pleased with the new picture ♥ Kristen Stewart, probably the only one that can carry off a formal dress + sneakers

Had such a mega weird dream last night, it was like a mash of stnicks+sa. Vaguely remember the details but I guess it means I really miss the schools+friends there :( Downloaded my new tutorials for math, totally killed every little bit of liking I had for it. Cant believe that time really passed so quickly; just last year we were all (hopefully) studying for prelims. From all these events that happened, really occurred that we're never really happy with what we have & we're forever complaining. During school, you're complaining for holidays and vice versa; its a bit annoying when you realise how much you were complaining back then & now you really really hate school.

Once again, after not working for a month, I believe I'll be using a lot of TGIFs and OSIMs. Really hope things will get better in school :(

2009-08-14T17:27:00.002+08:00

Sigh, school is like crap :c Totally regret choosing some ulu course that no one has heard about, thus no friends! Kinda regret not going for orientation + I totally suck at making new friends. Rly rly nda buy the stupid math text soon cause I cant remember squat about functions or anything about math for that matter. & I never thought I'd ever say this but omg I miss jc so much! Its just too different in ntu. Hate deciding what to wear everyday & hate to feel so confused during lectures when everyone else isnt :C

K, my aim next week is to make a friend. WISH ME LUCK

2009-08-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

Cant believe school is starting soon, still dont really understand the system of adding/dropping courses & Im damn shitass nervous for my core courses since Im probably in the 10th percentile or below :C & Im so bleedin' sure almost everyone got A for math, so GG for me! Really dont wna start school & there are so little forums that have my course. Grrr.

2009-07-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

I really think I should get the "Patience Award 2009" after my tuition session today zomggggg. My tuition kid tells me the most ridiculous stuff that Im probably gaping in horror half the lesson. And her timestable is horrendous I swear. She takes like 3 minutes to tell me what 8 x 8 is cause she uses her fingers to count, like 8 + 8 + 8 etc. & I really wanted to smack her head today cause on Tuesday I asked her to spell reptiles and she spelt it as r-e-t-i-l-e-s & she spelt it the SAME WAY again today, really dont know when it will get into that thick skull of hers that spelling is actually DAMN important. Sheesh. & I dont even want to get started on her Math >:C

On a brighter note, IKEA tomorrow with G, eggcited eggcited! Although Im probably such a oddball since I dont really like their meatballs!

2009-07-16T21:55:00.002+08:00

Im back & (amazingly) alive after today's tuition. I seriously dont know what to do with that girl :c Heres some stuff that happened during today's lesson ( I should have died of shock or smth )

#1

TK: How to read this word?
Me: 蚯蚓
TK: Means what?
Me: Earthworm
TK: Huh? I dont understand.

#2

Continuing with Chinese, they asked her to form a sentence with 忍不住;
TK: 忍不住的笑。
Me: Thats not a sentence, they want you to form a sentence.
TK: I dont know how

And as if that isnt enough horror for one lesson

#3

完成句子：
同学们围着一个圆圈，_______________（正在）

Guess what her answer was!
正在他们...

& I thought my chinese was horrendous. Im really so annoyed with teaching her, really testing my patience, thankfully I dont want to be a teacher.

On a different note, dad keeps reminding me not to drink water on the trains, I think its such a screwed up rule. I mean, no food and drinks I can understand, but why why WHY no water?? If I travel on the train for half an hour without water, its just plain torture especially since I drink so much everyday. & I have this terrible habit of drinking water when theres nothing else to do - what am I going to do now that I cant drink water? No offence to whoever but I really think its so unnecessary and retarded. Wish me luck tomorrow during my long train ride, either I die of thirst or end up paying a hefty sum.

2009-07-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

Whee, today has been the most productive since quitting work - I went to the post office to collect my parcel :> Really feels damn good to be able to wake up late and do nothing the whole day! 730 on tuesdays and thursdays are total mood spoilers cause theres tuition; seriously, I think I was possessed when I took up that tuition job, I hate myself :c Yesterday I was asking her what 4m was in cm, and she told me with absolute confidence that 4m = 4cm. I was just staring in shock. You have to be kidding right? What have I gotten myself into >:C

2009-07-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

Kay, Im feeling awesome, this week is the last week of work and I can honestly say, Im definitely not going to miss it. No more waking up early in the morning and feeling so annoyed with the world. Its been 4 months working, time really does pass fast. Dont think I've enjoyed work at all & I've definitely had my first taste of working life, encounters with extremely difficult people and first hand experience of office politics. Im just glad that I have a few more years to study before going out to work for real, no matter how vicious people are in school, its really no comparison to what I have gone through/heard in office. Although my office is rather small, half of the people there are super two-faced, especially when the big boss comes down. Only a few are genuinely nice people, thank god for them. I've become extremely tolerant and good at feigning ignorance, although my memory has suffered a good deal.

On a different note, my sis is going to rome that lucky girl >:C I wna go tooooo.

2009-06-18T10:41:00.002+08:00

At work now and I'm so annoyed as to how I manage to get myself into such deep shit month after month. My brain has really turned into mush, my memory is so bad that I probably can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago & where I placed the damned pen. Its so frustrating when customers call and ask for their cheques and I don't remember talking to them at all (explains why I'm always so amazed that they know my name when I honestly don't remember theirs) I'm so sick of screwing up and I hate having such a big responsibility >:C

2009-06-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

Life is boring, just finished season1 of 90210 & my favourite part of the entire season;

Navid: You're such a mess Ade.
Adrianna: Okay, thanks for that.
Navid: You're a recovering addict, you're pregnant, and you have what I can only hope is chocolate smeared across your face... You're a mess. But I couldn't care less. Want to know why? Because I was at the dance tonight and everything was supposed to be perfect, but it wasn't anywhere near perfect.
Adrianna: Why?
Navid: Because I wasn't with you. So I wanted to ask you something. Will you be my Valentine?

2009-06-15T21:15:00.003+08:00

Life hasnt been all that great, I'm really hoping that I get to quit work soon. Its really mundane & my mom thinks its cause I'm so anti-social. Well, maybe so. Its sucky mid-month, meaning piles of cheques and a million phone calls.

On another note, it really sucks being the eldest cause you get forced to grow up so soon. I was on the bus the other day and there were quite a number of elderly people. I got so frightened cause thats how my parents are going to be years down the road. I dont want to see them getting old/frail, Im not ready for all of that. Im not ready to grow up, Im really not.

2009-06-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

Just received ntu's package and, gosh, theres so many things to do! On another note, today after work I decided to walk home from the office haha! Took me a little over half an hour, feel so accomplished :)

2009-06-08T19:55:00.002+08:00

Everything's going to be alright.

2009-06-05T11:50:00.002+08:00

Im in office now, bored as hell, thank god its friday & its almost 12. I feel so annoyed having to get up early for work today, definitely not how I'd like to spend my holidays. Still remember all those lists that we wrote - Post As activites & promising myself that I would actually follow that list unlike the Post Os; barely did any of them cause we're all tied down with work :c (At least we went to the zoo; thats one down a million more to go)

Keep wondering why the hell I started working; I dont quite know if I enjoy it or hate it. First up theres the work experience which I hope will benefit next time & of course the extra money! It great that I dont have to keep feeling guilty for taking money from my parents to buy stuff but I dont know if the stress of this job is worth it. Its awesome to see the figures in your bank account increase every month (albeit the significant decrease cause of online shopping, which annoyingly, Im addicted to courtesy of shopping buddies joy&gillian)

K LUNCH TIME GTG

2009-06-03T21:58:00.002+08:00

Life is sad and theres nothing to talk about except how terribly mundane my life is with work. Work's killing me cause halfway during the day my back just aches so much that I cant breathe properly but I cant lie down in the office :c My mom wants me to visit the sinseh about it, Im still considering hahaha, dont want to go there and then get poked again! Time please fly by asapppp cant wait till the end of the month, Im hoping she gets back before 10th julyyy. I really miss being able to sleep at 2/3 am and waking up at noon.

2009-05-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

Teehee, Drew Carey's Green Screen Show 8) Cant believe they took it off air :c

Jeff Jeff Jeff ♥

2009-05-21T22:06:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I know what I'm doing. Im just so direction-less. I can't plan ahead because I don't know what I want to do. I can't make decisions now cause I'm so afraid that it will restrict decisions in the future. Like how I've always tried choosing subjects so that I will have the widest range of options available, even now I'm still going down that path. It doesn't help that I'm so terribly fickle-minded either. Anyhoo, despite all that, I am so damn sure I want to quit my job as soon as the boss gets back. Sure the money part is attractive but I think sleep is more important (to me at least) and I don't have to countdown to Friday. & TGIF Tomorrow!!

2009-05-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

I guess you only learn the treasure things only after you've lost them. I really miss school days, the awesome company & endless fun we had laughing over everything and anything. Work.. its just not quite the same. At least not for me. I have nothing to look forward to everyday going to work, maybe its me being antisocial, but I really dont see anything common between me and the other few people working there. Theres the age difference and then the vast difference in the sense of humor, and oh have I mentioned the language barrier? The English is unbelievable! I get quite irked when talk to someone with bad English (and Im not saying that my English is super good or anything) its so bad that they cant even construct a coherent sentence. Its just painful to listen to (& those friends that I've told find the sentence structure hilarious).

Its a chore to wake up every morning and realise OH**** theres work. I've been complaining a lot ever since it started. Feeling angsty every morning & getting reminded by my mom that woking was MY decision so I can't blame anyone and so relieved when its 6pm because it means I get to go home and shower and wash the gross office smell away. & Im so glad that Joy's office is rather near so I get to meet her for lunch and it takes my mind off work. I'm really hoping that my boss can only take a 2 month maternity leave because I am soooo quitting if she comes back because I refuse to be there when she mis-pronounces my name for the million-th time. & I still dont get it, who in the world leaves a 19yrold with absolutely no work experience in charge of the finance department and well, theres only ME in it.

2009-05-11T19:55:00.003+08:00

I am very annoyed with someone at work but I really cannot be bothered. Blame me & bitch about me all you want, its totally not my fault and I have a clear conscience unlike yours. Besides, you'll probably be stuck doing that lousy job for the rest of your life but I won't.

Anyhoww, congrats guoguo for passing your tp 8D now you can drive me around HINTHINT. Lunched with Joy was awesome, never fails to brighten up my day cause I always end up laughing and so happy after lunch. Cant wait to meet up next monday :)

2009-05-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be complaining at all, considering that I got the course I really wanted. Somehow I'm not reacting the way I should be, theres just nothing. No excitement (save for the sudden burst of happiness after getting it), no nothing. On another note, I really miss my long hair.

2009-05-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

Due to sheer boredom, I was just reading random stuff on wikipedia and I chanced upon this which I thought was interesting. Until I googled the pictures and just clutched my legs and squirmed around. Go image search and type in "varicose veins", its really so ickyyyy :c

2009-05-03T15:53:00.001+08:00

yay super happy :)

2009-04-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

Wolverine was Fwesome with a capital F

2009-04-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

I feel so.. empty.

2009-04-24T17:40:00.002+08:00

Oh sweet friday 8) Was even better cause I only worked 3 hours today then headed to boonlay to meet guoguo & go for my ntu interview. Reached mega early and walked around, stoned and talked until it was time. Thanks for the present guooo 8) love it, & its in my favourite colour!! Also thanks for accompanying me cause I will surely get lost even though I printed out the map of ntu ahhaha, blame it on my lousy sod.

On another note, I'm so excited for Wednesday because Im going to meet my love ♥

2009-04-20T20:58:00.002+08:00

& just because work was such a bore, I did plenty of thinking, slacking and reading, mostly thinking. It's become so routine for me to wake up, come home, try-but-fail to sleep and get up again for work. I've become pretty numb. I go to work showing no emotion but I know life sucks. Then again, I only have myself to blame because I applied for the job, which brings me to the conclusion that I suck a making choices. Ironic, when thats all there is to life. I'm incapable of making right decisions & I hate when I have to. Like now, when we're all deciding uni courses. I haven't even thought what I want to do in life and yet, life is just like those trial and error problems in primary school. Loved those kind of questions because it means you dont have to think, just do workings and you'll get the answer if you guess. Only difference in life is that you cant guess & you probably have only one chance to get it right.

2009-04-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

Finally Friday, so mega pleased. Today's my brother's birthday but he's at OBS hahahha. Poor thing. The house is definitely more quiet without him but I miss him abit. He always tells me funny things & we always have such fun together hahaha :)

Anyhow, keeping with my tradition of having a bad fall every year, while I was getting lunch today I fell down a few steps, it wasn't just a couple of steps but it wasn't a flight of stairs either, just somewhere in between. Marvellous. How in the world do I manage to be such a klutz I'll never know. Good thing is that I escaped relatively unharmed, my hand stinging for a bit, no visible cuts/bruises after. I'm just hoping that this will be my "fall of the year", if it is I think I got off easy. Compared to the previous two years - falling and hitting tailbone in j1 & falling near the busstop and getting knee scraped badly last year. (oh wait, I fell twice last year at both busstops outside school)

I do hope I won't fall next year :) From now till then, I will walk very very carefully, not trip over my shoes/slippers/feet and well, practise walking for another year.

2009-04-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

OMG This is totally hilarious. I laughed with Joy until I almost cried. Pls watch the mega-enthu specs guy hhaahahah

2009-04-13T21:10:00.001+08:00

While working today, I suddenly thought of Friends and this episode where Chandler said "Its definitely less satisfying stealing office supplies from your own home..." I completely agree.

2009-04-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

Gave up waiting for Knightrider to load, too tired. Will be 19 tomorrow, not particularly excited or anything. I still dont get the big fuss over celebrating birthdays. I told my mom that they didnt have to do anything or buy any cake but she got so flustered hahaha.

So I'm a year older, probably still the same. Only thing new is that I got a job, first time in my life & I really feel like quitting it cause it sucks so bad. Finally realised that adults were not kidding when they said schooling days were the best because they really were. No worries about money cause theres always allowance, now I dont even get allowance >:C Accounting is damn shitass boring and it's really making my eyesight DAMN BAD. I'm even thinking about finding a replacement so I can return to my slack life although I complain that its so boring everyday - but still better than working. Hopes the boss gives birth and takes a damn short maternity leave. It will be my best birthday present ever -- no wait. Hope she fires me coming Monday.

First time working and its such a bad experience :c Makes me never ever want to work. Then again, I probably learnt many things like DONT DO ACCOUNTING x 100000 and lunch hour is only an hour from 12-2 and not any other hour when you feel like going to eat. I've reasoned that I'm too sheltered and ignorant about everything. I probably still am terribly ignorant & I have little to none GK. Oh well!

On an entirely different note, I borrowed a book from the library which I hope I will persevere to finish reading. I borrowed 7 books last week and well, out of the seven I finished erm one? And it was the Ellen Degeneres book "The funny thing is..." that I read before! (It is highly recommended if you havent read it!)

2009-04-08T22:25:00.003+08:00

Met with G, Shar, Meow today after work! Dinnered at Billy Bombers and I never want to eat fish and chips for a month! So I received my bkk stuff and teehee my presents! THANKS P SHAR G MEL!! Im going to start practising this friday haha! Kay damn tired and thank god friday is GOOD friday, literally.

2009-04-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

Work today was so terrible, had some bad sinus thing going on so I was sniffing and sneezing throughout all 4hours :c

Met J at amkhub for Confessions of a Shopahoic! Super nice and funny! I kept laughing at the mannequins & I love Hugh Dancy :D Must watch! Also saw the poster for WOLVERINE. Have been waiting like 2/3 years for that movie to come out, so eggcited to watch it, Hugh Jackman ♥
Theres also like night at the museum 2 and many others. Plus, Dakota Fanning is playing Jane (I think) in New Moon :) I love Dakota Fanning! And she totally suits that vampire thing.

Feel like dying but yay its finally FRIDAY!

2009-03-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

I haven't been using my brains in such a long time, I cant even figure out a primary3 math question. Before attempting it I was still so smug and thinking, its primary 3 how hard can the number pattern be!

Complete the pattern:
2 , 4 , 8 , 24 , 72 , 288 , ??

So I thought long and hard and gave up. I went home and asked my little brother, 5 seconds later he happily announces, SO EASY. Then proceeds to showing me how exactly the answer is derived.

My life has been so routine that I dont even have to think about what I'm doing. My brains are turning into mush :c

2009-03-29T18:28:00.002+08:00

So last night I dreamt I was eating mini donuts at a food fair & I woke up this morning thinking how great it would be if I could invent some mini donuts. Then I went downstairs and flipped open life and damn! J.Co already has mini donuts. After that I thought it would be nice if there were mini muffins, but I guess that was already invented a long time ago ie. Friends: Ross & Ugly naked guy.

On a Friends related note, I just finished watching season6 & the part when Chandler proposed to Monica oh it made me cry :c
I love Chandler!

2009-03-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

Omg, hellooooo. Im using Guoguo's Mac(Spicy) and it's freaking difficult to use. I spent a good half an hour trying to log in. Still figuring out how in the world I'm supposed to log out of this adium thingy so I'm using her account and talking to seowli. At the same time, I'm trying to figure out how to change the PM so I can change it to: HI THIS IS NOT GUOMIN. Hope none of her friends talk to me hahahha! Mac is so difficult to use! H8H8H8H8H8!! Miss my vaio >:C

2009-03-20T13:55:00.002+08:00

Hello, I just got home with my shoes soaked and filling up with rainwater and my entire back wet. My ass was soaked and legs as well thanks to the wretched rain! Nevertheless, I was so gloriously happy while walking, it didn't bother me that I was stepping into puddles and soaking my socks. It was as though I had this little sun above my head and birds chirping around me. I wanted to throw my umbrella away and skip back home hahahaha, its FRIDAY for goodness sakes. Nothing can get me down today! (ohkay, maybe if the tuition kid calls and wants tuition, I'll be slightly annoyed but oh what the heck!)

2009-03-19T20:23:00.002+08:00

Met P today after work, had KFC and tried to read our faces haha, attempt failed cause the book was so ambiguous. Went to take photos and then to timezone to play car games! I'm good :> Anyhow, we went to pet safari after and omg, I don't want any yorkshire terrier! I want a little brown toy poodle :D (Definitely without the poodle type of haircut!) The one at pet safari is so mega cute! Looks like a little teddybear ♥♥♥

Work really suckss, actually the part I hate most is having to wake up so bloody early in the morning and thinking of what to wear, so stressful! Luckily work is so near my house if not I will surely quit! Love weekends and I'm so thankful it's FRIDAY to-morrow! Can get more sleep, new episode of antm cycle 12, time to finish reading my library books & continue many episodes of Friends/House/Reaper/KnightRider. Tsk, wish the weekends were longer!

Ps: Not looking forward to next week because I have to start working full day :c

2009-03-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

HOORAY, uni apps are done. So stressful deciding on which courses to take, plus I'm so fickle minded. Since secondary school it was psychology then design then to business... Still deciding if I should fill in ntu's non-acad part & if applying for smu is worth it since I'm not the least bit interested in going there.

Sigh, work tomorrow and its going to be a loooong day. Since I'm there the whole day, might as well be less productive. Hope I get to process cheques again :}

2009-03-14T20:46:00.002+08:00

OMG MEGA TIRED. Walked the whole day in heels >:C
H8H8H8
Figured my tolerance for heels is like 20/100 & after today, my tolerance of pain increased infinitely like a million over 100. I can feel my legs aching already >:C

2009-03-12T15:45:00.002+08:00

Finally managed to develop my photos from Splitcam, some turned out nice, others blurry much. Cool effects & now I know when to use and how to use it can't wait to run out and buy more films!

Ps: Dont wna work tomorrow >:C

2009-03-11T20:54:00.003+08:00

Having a job sucksss, the only thing that motivates me to get up everyday is the pay >:C Well, tomorrow my boss is on leave, hooray! Can slack a bit although I have damn a lot of things to do! Getting home from work's always the best & wednesdays, you gotta love ninja warrior :)

Eggcited for next Tuesday cause I'm going to collect my nail polish (!!) and get tuition pay! Teeheeee. Met my cousin today and visited a pet shop, the Japanese Spitz is damn cute :)

Wish my hair was a tad straighter, it keeps curling in all directions. So much for that Adrianna look >:C

2009-03-09T21:22:00.002+08:00

First day of work & Im shitass tired. I'd rather stay at home and be bored and stone to death, and today wasn't even a full day at work >:C

I think short hair is even more difficult to manage than long hair. I actually combed my hair. Tsk so frustrating, should have layered my hair, feels so heavy at the bottom. Cant wait for my hair to grow back.

quiz

2009-03-08T13:08:00.002+08:00

Visual&PerformingArts 81%
Mathematics/Statistics 69%
HR/BusinessManagement 63%
Psychology/Sociology 63%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing 63%
Education/Counseling 56%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology 56%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 50%
Physics/Engineering/Computer 44%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 38%
English/Journalism/Comm 38%
Religion/Theology 38%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy 31%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 25%

Zzz, its still visual/performing arts right at the top. Anyhow, the link is here G!

2009-03-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

2009-03-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

2009-03-02T21:02:00.002+08:00

Just as I was about to give up looking for a job, someone had to call. & yet again I have to be a joke because results are coming out on friday and almost all friends are quitting their jobs soon.

So today I had my first practical lesson, interesting. Just want to get my lisence before stupid PDL expires & I have a job interview tomorrow, hope I get the job, its near my house :)

& omg friday >:-C

2009-02-23T21:21:00.002+08:00

Sigh, results are coming out, more panic attacks. BBG outing yesterday was fun, magic tricks and all. I never thought I'd miss school so much, especially since we all vowed that we'll never be attached to school at all and can't wait to leave. I pretty much miss everything about it save for the spotchecks cause I always get caught (so unlucky :c) The thing I miss most are all the times spent with the class, most of the class anyway. Playing bridge during GP, laughing during lessons except math, laughing at joy during pe etc. Finding a job is no fun at all >:C I'm just not ready to grow up

2009-02-20T20:29:00.002+08:00

Super hooked on a new show, Huntik :)

♥ Dante Vale

Dont want to get back results >:C

2009-02-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

I never knew things happened that way & you didn't say anything about it. All along I thought it was just over nothing, some stupid argument but it wasn't. Now I know why you said all that to me & kept it all from me. Super heartbroken :c

2009-02-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

Back after super long, am bored & unemployed until I don't want to work anymore.