Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Haven't blogged for the longest time! Its freezing cold & I'm rewatching Psych cause apparently theres a pineapple featured in every episode. I'm gna find all of them hehehe!
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17:37
Friday, April 16, 2010
No matter how pessimistic you are, there will still be a part of you that hopes one day your life will have a fairytale ending, a happily ever after. Amidst all the chaos in the world and the harshness of reality, we all want to go back to being a child, when life was all good and you believed that fairytale endings would really come true.
& its funny how your ipod can shuffle to some random song and make you think so much about life.
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10:48
Sunday, April 11, 2010
I don't get the deal with birthdays, I mean, I like celebrating other people's birthdays but when it comes to mine, let's just say if I could choose, I'd rather not have one at all. Like jeez, I don't need people to remind me that I'm getting older that I'll be having more responsibilities in my life & that I'm not doing a good job with them. Maybe it's that people expect you to be happy on your birthday but what if I don't want to be happy? To me, its just another day, or probably worse than a normal day. Its just a few more hours till 12th April and I'm already feeling like it's going to be a horrible day. Then again.. maybe it's just me.
I don't need huge birthday parties or expensive presents, I just want a day to myself, to figure what I want in my life and what I'm doing. Cause as of right now, I don't know if I'm studying cause I want to, or if it's because I have to. And it's funny how my birthday wishes have all been the same since sec 4 (cause that's when I started wishing) & till today, it hasn't come true. All I need to know now is that I won't give up on myself cause lately, that's all I've been wanting to do.
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21:57
Sunday, March 28, 2010
You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
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14:27
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Doing my stupid hw111 assignment (coming up with a resume) made me realise I really don't know what I want to do with my life. Just finding a job ad is so difficult, nothing seems to be remotely interesting, nothing that I really want to commit. I'm beginning to wonder if studying this much is actually worth it; especially since now theres just zero motivation to sit down and look at lecture notes / books. I just need one brilliant product idea and I wont have to do anything for the rest of my life!
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14:07
Friday, February 26, 2010
Haven't cried so much in such a long time. I don't even know why the hell I cried so much. I'm just so tired and frustrated of living up to insane expectations all the time. You said that I should be doing better than I am now just to prove to myself that I can & I realised, all I've ever done was to prove to you that I could.
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20:46
Monday, February 22, 2010
Monday again. Am in the com lab now waiting for 1030 for econs discussion. Just ended matrices tutorial and I came out of it with an empty brain. Anyhoo, I think theres some 'humor barrier' between me and the PRCs in my class. My tutor's some russian dude and he had to keep leaving the classroom to get markers cause those in the class didnt work. So them PRCs were just giggling to themselves everytime he left the room.. is it very funny??
Now Im just annoyed that I cant print my lecture slides >:-C The lousy spms comp cant open PPT!!!
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10:05
